Felix can feel Jim tense when he tries to argue. He's right. Assuring Jim that any life he deemed necessary to take wasn't worthy to be alive in the first place isn't going to make him feel any better here. After so many centuries of bloodshed, war, and death his people have moved forward toward peace.
Taking a life, even if it was deserved, isn't Jim's way. It goes against everything he stands for. Every life ended by his hands and his choices taking something away from him too.
But oh. Blue eyes regain some of their light. Raise up tentatively to meet Felix's gaze. It was a nightmare designed to torment him. This is true. That's why it made him think Felix had died in his arms. It was why they were starving. And...and why they chose to take a man's life even though it wouldn't save anyone.
As strong as Jim's self loathing is, he can't argue with this. Instead he nods numbly in agreement. His fingers reaching out to cling at Felix's sleeve.
"But it...it's done now." A reminder to himself as much as anything.Maybe the conjurer is right. His relaxation is minute but it's there all the same.
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Taking a life, even if it was deserved, isn't Jim's way. It goes against everything he stands for. Every life ended by his hands and his choices taking something away from him too.
But oh. Blue eyes regain some of their light. Raise up tentatively to meet Felix's gaze. It was a nightmare designed to torment him. This is true. That's why it made him think Felix had died in his arms. It was why they were starving. And...and why they chose to take a man's life even though it wouldn't save anyone.
As strong as Jim's self loathing is, he can't argue with this. Instead he nods numbly in agreement. His fingers reaching out to cling at Felix's sleeve.
"But it...it's done now." A reminder to himself as much as anything.Maybe the conjurer is right. His relaxation is minute but it's there all the same.